It's really hard to admit that; with the kecanggihan technology, sometimes it brings more negativity rather than something positive. For instance, I am no longer have more time sitting in front of my desktop and writing blogs. Instead, I (still) get too attached with smart phone(s) and do stuffs.
*tiup habuk kat blog*
Anyway, how's life?
I know some of you still checkin' out this page, craving for more things or maybe just browsing my archive and read those "Pantang Larang" section. lol. I promise, I will update the pantang larang soon. I have some good stuffs.
2016. Have been slightly amazing to me. I had (and still experiencing) the ups and downs of what we call - life. But most important is that I've got the chance to travel to some part of the world. Which is amazing. Kadang-kadang kan, bila dah semakin berusia, kita akan lebih menghargai apa yang ada di sekeliling kita, contohnya parents. Sebab tu dalam tahun ni, aku nasihat kepada diri sendiri untuk kerap balik rumah untuk jenguk keluarga. But the definition of keluarga ni berbeza, especially in the work life. Sebab hanya orang yang dah berkahwin je ada keluarga. Orang bujang macamana? Takde. Yes. Orang bujang takde parents, sibling and relatives to spend our time with. Isn't it?
2016. I try to appreciate myself more. After all, what's the point of spending so much money, time and attention to other people/thing? At the end of the day, will they appreciate you? I have learnt at least a lesson in 2016. Work still continues tomorrow though you die today. Never that I thought that I will have to pack my colleague's workstation at this age. You went too soon, my friend. Al-Fatihah.
2016. Sometimes, you just had to say "No" to certain things. Saying "Yes" all the times will eventually backfired you.
Yeap, we still have few days remaining to travel 2016. And I hope I will, eventually progress; and be ready to travel 2017.
Setelah sekian lama, cewah, saya akan cuba mengaktifkan diri semula dalam bidang penulisan. Sebenarnya banyak saja benda yang nak dikongsikan, cumanya kebelakangan ni masa-masa senggang lebih terisi dengan aktiviti riadah seperti swimming, membongkang, makan dan aktiviti yang tak bermanfaat. Huhuhu.
Sejak awal tahun haritu, aku banyak je pergi aktiviti-aktiviti setempat dan luar tempat yg berdekatan. Antaranya Pesta Belon Udara Panas Antarabangsa Putrajaya 2016.
Sama macam tahun-tahun lepas, penganjuran pesta ni selalunya pada bulan Mac. Cumanya tahun ni, macam tak berapa meriah sangat kot. Aku rasa la. Official merchandise event ni pun macam suam-suam kuku je. Tak macam last year.
Adalah macam2 benda yang dijualnya; mostly makanan and adalah barang mainan bebudak dan juga pakaian. Ada gak la yang jual barang deko2 rumah (like, apa kaitan semua ini dengan hot air balloon, kan?) tapi, itulah. Layan jugak lah!
Yang paling menangkap perhatian aku adalah booth 'Wonderful Indonesia' yang terletak ditengah2 tapak pesta. Memang tahun ni macam ada plan nak gi travel Indonesia, sebenarnya, so layan jugak lah.
Paling best, aku dan Maman saja je join pertandingan susun surat kat booth Pos Malaysia. Kiranya, kena susun 27 surat mengikut nama jalan, poskod, bangunan etc pada rak yang disediakan lah! Ok apa, sesekali merasa jadi posman. Too bad untuk Maman sebab tak dapat beat record peserta sebelumnya.
But, Alhamdulillah; bila tiba turn aku, aku dapat bested the record; 1'35". Ok lah kan. Dapat lah hadiah 'sampul surat hari pertama' daripada penganjur!
Dan bila nak balik tu, kitorang tertangkap satu figura yang sedap mata memandang; rupa2nya figura itu boleh didapati di sebuah booth jualan! Makanya, dengan tidak berfikir panjang, kitorang pun singgah dan membeli belah di situ. Sedap baq hang! Popcorn dan air minuman yang dijual kat situ!
Agak2 dah panas terik tengahari tu, kami pun balik! Tu je.
I know you have been checking on my blog frequently. So this entry is for you.
Things happened for reasons. And sadly, things were (and are) not working quite well with us. We once were buddies, we shared most of our times together - doing things, travels, the sleepovers, etc. But, things changed. I am no longer a friend once you knew very well. And you are no longer a friend whose emotions I can easily predict. Not anymore.
We have got too close that it seems very hard for us (especially you) to put everything we once share at the back of your head; back of your life; back to the place called 'memory' or 'lesson learnt'.
We are adults. No longer teenagers, growing up and still figuring our lives. You have created your own life path as I have started to embark my adventurous journey. We are good with it. Supposedly, nothing to be worried because that's how things work. The life.
So, let bygones be bygones; by moving on to the next chapter(s) of your own life; as I do on mine. Do not ask forgiveness from me but yourself. Do not continuously blame yourself for what you have lost.
We may no longer be friends now, and let the time flies. Who knows what will happened in the future - whether in this remaining life on dunya or the hereafter.
I have always proud of you; your achievements. But never proud of you torturing your soul over what happened.
So, unless you can prove to me that you can continue to be a great person (includes no longer stalking my blog), after reading this; you can fuck off and do not ever think to (even) dream about me again.
Sorry, not sorry, pal.
I have a story to tell.
You got to listen to this story.
Okay, go on.
Alright! So there is a guy. He is just an ordinary guy. Typical layman; working eight-to-five job except on some occasions that require him to stay longer at the office. So, along the way... working, he met this bunch of people, soon became his clique and close friends. He would go out lunch, dinner, movies and some occasion together. But he later found that there is this one girl, that keep catching his attention.
Is she hot?
She is just an ordinary girl. A lady, to be precise. Full with emotions, funny, knows how to make jokes and fun of him. She always spare some of her time to be with him, apparently. She is nice and beautiful.
So, that is the thing.
The thing. He is totally confused then. Because he has forgotten how to be in love, again. Though he knows the hints and so on, he's just like, confused; you know... Like, panicking. What to do now, what to do next. How he is supposed to react, and such.
So, he consulted with his brother. Later his mother. And he's still do not know what to do. Eventually, the girl probably lost hopes in him and things aren't like before. Their eyes no longer met; they lose words. They become a complete stranger. Mostly because of him; keeping his feelings to himself, by not telling the truth. Probably, that guy is no longer the girl's muse.
Duh! What a stupid guy.
Yes. Coward, actually.
Has he seek guidance from Him?
Eventually yes. And everything's heading towards one thing. That girl.
That must be a sign.
Perhaps, but you know, 'Decent man is for a decent woman" thing.
So, is she not a good kind of person?
Not that girl. But him. He knows he is not a good person. Never a good person; at least not for her.
So, you are a God, now? How do you know?
... I don't know. He felt that way. Always.
...Or, could it be that the girl will be the reason for him to be a better man?
Hm, I got your point.
So, who is this she?
Urm, a girl?
Sigh, and who is this 'he'?
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